My Scotsman...omg!

ok so that tried and true website for dating, I found a guy from Scotland...when I say he was hot I mean he was hot...omg!  we skyped together and his voice just turned me on and he talked to me about how he'd like to do any number of things to me and seriously considered booking a flight over there and seeing what he's all about.  I mean seriously talk about the sexiest voice ever... the only thing I wasn't really so sure about was the number of women he's slept with...I mean you can have the sexiest voice, tattoo's in all the right places and the firmest, sexiest ass in the world but with the number of women you slept with really makes me think.  He even sent me a really fun song called She's so lovely by Scouting for Girls.  omg! I really should have gone over there, if I knew what i know now I would have gone over there and had my way with him....mmmm...I'm going to send him a message, we had gotten in a tift over something really rediculous but I'd really love to hear his voice again...yea I would...MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
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Figured I'd just say this:  THANK GOD I'M NOT DATING THE HICK AGAIN!!! Holy shit!  Ok I'm done lol

what the fuck

man the crazy hicks over here to hang out with his friend and to gather his shit... I think I would have done much better if I had never invited him back into my life...he walks around like he's got a big dick and that he's all that, but all he is is a damn hick...I mean come on!  Your not sexy, your not hot but you are a psycho!  I hate the way he stands, I hate the way he smells...  he used to stalk me outside my school, work and home, like I figured having him back into my life would have been any different...fuck!  I'm an idiot, but I suppose live and learn...man am I happy I never let that one guy know where I live, holy god!  Anyways he's moving around my house, asking me hows life, work and whatever else...as if much has changed since thursday....he acts like I've damaged him, but hes the only one whose hurt himself...well anyways that's enough of my rant right now...maybe I'll tell you about my Scottsman...mmm now that's a fine piece of ass lol

Mohawk, crazy ass drunk hick and the plans for a girls night

So I hung out with my girl today...lets call her...ummm...mohawk, cause you know she likes mohawks, anyways she wants to date, but doesn't know when the right time is to ask, I told her I'm very hesitant to get into a relationship right now, not only because I really don't care for commitments but also because I don't want to be binded to anyone right now, I'm enjoying my freedom.  She's awesome and I really like her but as I said I'm very hesistant about getting into a relationship with her, face it women are nuts. 

Anyways, I was suppose to go on a float trip in a couple weeks but I decided against it cause that crazy ass hick is suppose to go and frankly I don't feel like being around a drunk hick and getting into fights and arguements with him, just does not sound like a good time to me.  Anyways I am going to host a girls night inviting my drunk friend, my young friend and mohawk.  I think board games, movies and just full on bullshiting...or maybe it should be bitchshitting since its a bunch of women lol.  Anyways that's all for this evening, I'm pretty sure there's a guy I had dated I haven't told you all about yet but I'm not 100% sure.  Anyway if there is be sure you'll be reading about it cause I'm sure it was crazy lol.  Have a great evening everyone... maybe I should do some elaboration on these events...  I'll probably go through them and do more elaboration but not right now, just later.

Bisexual, Lesbian and the plot of ditching

Where to begin, where to begin.  My friends have always known me to be bisexual, into both men and women (you know for those of you who have never heard that term before), I've only ever dated men, but if you can see from all my posts so far, no luck, so I'm trying my hand at women.  I like women, fantasize about them occassionally especially Mila and Christina Cox (mmmmm....), so I've decided to join a lesbian dating website (it has to be different then looking for men...right?) and I posted on fb that I'm interested in women, so far I got several different hits and met one girl all this in less than 24hrs (hellz ya!), I really like the girl I'm talking to, she is just recently exploring from the closet and has never dated another girl, we're talking right now and so far hitting it off really well.  I still have a fantasies about men so I guess I'm not completly lesbian.  I did tell that guy in the previous post that I was lesbian, but I do believe that was more or less to get rid of him (I'm evil).  Anywho I'm giving this a try, after all I'm an adventurer....oh and did I ever mention that I never really did want to date the hick and I was just after his brother, but found out his brother had a gf so I settled...man was I an idiot, I mean come-on!  The guys a fucking psycho!  I tried again and it is true when they say 'an ex is an ex for a reason', I just wanted to make sure that I wasn't missing anything....people really don't change.... *sigh* except me, but that's cause I wanted to ;-)

finding closure with the hick

You remember about that ex I told you about, who was kinda crazy and a hick...well here's the new development (don't worry when I don't update this thing in a while that just means I'm going on adventures and what an adventure this one is...).  A couple months ago like late May or early June... I had reconnected with that crazy hick and while talking to him over the phone (he was living in another state), I heard his crazy ex gf call him slow and a retard (after living with him, I do have to admit he was slow) it pissed me off so bad that I was going to go up there and whip the girls ass, I in essence forced him down here to get him away from her because I had to listen over the phone to him being terrified of the girl cause she would beat the shit out of him and he doesn't believe in hitting women, and he was running and what not.  I was very concerned for him because yes I did have deeply rooted feelings for him.  So he came down here and we meet in a state inbetween and our mutual friend who I had just met jumps into his car with him.  Not even 5 mins in the car and he gets hauled off to jail, so the cop pissing me off, I decided to do the most sensible thing, bail his ass out of jail for a pretty penny.  Hick comes to stay with me and we work on getting to know each other and in that process of getting to know each other, he crawls up my butt, roots his tendrils in there and practically dies there.  He was like a  puppy who just found the kingdom of heaven and all the bones he can chew on.  Slowly I find myself falling out of love with him and don't really realize it till recently.  I know he came back for me, so I try and stick it out.  It had gotten to the point where he pissed me off cause he just wanted to go everywhere with me (yes he's the clingy type).  Last night I decide to join a lesbian dating website and met a girl (I'll explain in a later post).  I told the hick this and he gets all depressed and mopy on me like a whipped puppy.  Today I had met the girl and find that I really like her cause she's got a fantastic personality.  and he gets home from school and says he's going to take a shower and says to me 'you can always join me,' I tell him no because I'm lesbian and I really like the girl I met today.  he says to me 'that's not something I wanted to hear.'  He gets out of the shower and starts to fight with me, saying I was wrong for forcing him to come down here and making him lose his job (which he himself stated he could get back) and any other thing to say to make me feel bad.  He gives me that look, that strong look in the eyes like trying to make me look away, assure his masculinity and I stare him down, this is the same shit he did when we had broken up the first time 4 years ago and I wasn't about to back down.  I told him when he first came down that I wanted to take it slow because I have alot of emotions to work through and that I can't gaurantee its gonna work out between us.  I didn't toy with his heart, I did not allow him to touch me, hug me or fuck him.  He kept trying to insist on getting back into a relationship and I had to reinforce what I had told him.  I should have left his ass up there, left well enough alone because we just went down the same goddamn road.  but had I left well enough alone then my 'what-ifs' would not have been satisfied.... take the good with the bad I suppose but at least now I know.... *sigh*