Advice to my fellow women

One thing I've learned about relationships is that they are overrated.  In the past I've gotten in relationships because I've felt lonely and to not feel bad about screwing someone outside of marriage.  That is something that's been ingrained in me since childhood and slowly but surely that is going out the damn window as I'm doing 90 down the highway.  Marriage is highly overrated it is in my opinion only a piece of paper that costs a lot of money and god forbid you should get a divorce cause that costs an ass load of money.  I've found myself fuck buddies and I enjoy it because I get my needs met and then they get home, unless your my current fuck buddy then you stick around and talk with me.  The only thing is it kind of wierds me out when they stick around after sex and we chit chat.  I mean aren't they suppose to leave afterwards?  My friends all tell me that means he's interested in me.

Ladies here's a tip I've discovered: When you get a man's number text or call him once, if he doesn't reply or call back, don't continue to call him.  Let the number sit for about a week, then send another text or phone call, if nothing, then delete the number.  If they are truly interested in you and they see your not acting desperate they are more likely to come to you.  don't go to them, fuck that, let them come to you.  Dress your best, act the flirt but don't be easy unless your looking for a one night stand, in that case feel free to be easy.  Also ladies, in bed don't be limp and lay there, flip him over and ride that man, hold his arms down as your ridding him and then procede on biting his neck, drives them absolutely crazy!  lol I love it, cause when I do that them men keep coming back, I know, that's why I have exes still trying to get back with me. 

Ladies, don't fuck around with men, if your interested and they show that they are interested and actually make the effort to get to know you, don't blow them off.  If your not interested shit just be honest with them, its best to punch them as hard as you can in the face rather than sugar coating the blow.  That's the way I work.  I just got done telling an ex of mine that we were never going to date and that he could never have me because I didn't trust him and then I told him exactly the reasons why I didn't trust him (previous post, crazy ass hick).  Men hate it when you beat around the bush, so don't, don't sugar coat shit.  Men love a woman who is honest, men love me because I'm brutally honest, something I've learned over the years.

Ladies if you don't trust your man and you have to find out if he's cheating on you there is 2 things going on: either your ultra paranoid or he's giving you reason not to trust him.  Be open and honest with him, ask him direct questions.  Are you cheating on me?  Do you want to be with someone else?  Chances are its not you and some men will try and make it about you, what's wrong with you, listen take it in, but under no circumstance attempt to change for that ass.  There's a few men that will lie but you  can tell in how they reply that they are lieing to you, if you still despite all his good efforts to convince you other wise that he's not cheating on you still believe he's cheating on you, break up with him, don't beat around the bush, don't wait for your heart to get broken worse than what it already is, just break up with him.  In the case that you are just ultra paranoid cause you've been in relationships where guys have cheated on you, then I suggest you speak to someone, or take time off of relationships and learn more about yourself, treat yourself, do something nice for you.  Don't lead a man to love you and then suspect them of cheating on you.  To the few good guys that don't, that hurts like a mother fucker.

Anyways this post is done, anything you want to hear about, any post you want clarification feel free to ask away.  Peace ya'll

Morgan

Lets be interactive

Alright ladies, gentlemen, this is going to be an interactive blog.  What would you all like to see in the next blog, or whenever I start to get comments on this?  Any burning questions you have for me?  I look forward to your questions or thoughts.

There was a boy one time, who I fell in love with in middle school and stayed in love with him through my time being alive.  Only seeking happiness for him I hooked him  up with my roommate because I wasn't sure if I could be the one to bring him happiness.  They broke up because unknoweth to me she was psychotic.  Now all I want is for him to be happy, but I also want myself to be happy.  I'm sure, positive down there somewhere in his heart he has a seed of love for me.  He shows me just by the way he acts around me or talks to me when we have a chance to be together.  I miss him terribly and want to be by his side for the rest of my life and yet he loves another.  I have a hard time trying to love another person as much as I love him, no matter who I date, who I meet he's always there nestled softly within the chambers of my heart, I harbour him there like the womb holds a seed.  I can't help it, he's the only one I want, yet he tells me to go out have fun and if we're meant to be together then it'll happen.  I'm not one for fate, I believe in writing your own destiny on that tablet of life, if guided by fate then so be it but I walk my own path in life.

I just really miss him right now and he doesn't come home till december when he'll be bringing his girlfriend...I suppose everyone has their Ashley Wilkes.

Fascination, personal musings and all things attractive

This evening is a very strange one indeed.  I do believe I'm slightly hormonal, watching romance movies with my cats and dog wondering if one day my life will become a romance story in and of itself.  Even reading back on the various relationships I've had, I think to myself, will there ever be an end to the drama of breaking up and finally just be an ever after.  Then I realize I live in the real world and that my happy ending is not likely.  The happy ending that's more than likely to happen for me, is finding a bigger apartment for my cats and dog and retiring at a nice old age and having a nice large marijuana farm so I can stay marginally stoned the entire time I wait for death.  Before that time however I plan on meeting all kinds of women and men and testing those tepid waters that writhe underneath my feet.  I plan on visiting places meeting new people and living life to the fullest while I am still young. 

Ok so now that my personal musings are over with lets get with what you all have been waiting for...new developments in my life.

Ok so I work with a secretary who is fantastic, sexy as hell and smart, around my age very attractive.  We shared numbers and I've sent him a text or 2, but no more than that preferably because first off in my lessons in life I will not appear needy or desperate and I would prefer him to come to me.  I really like him and he's a nice guy.  He told me and the other ladies I work with that he has tattoos. Nickname: Tattoo

One of the managers I work with is, well when I first saw him he damn near took my breath away.  I so love talking to him because he is on my level and what's even better he even lives near me.  blue eyes.  Small development nothing huge.  Nickname: Blues

I met a guy, who's a doctor and very attractive.  Smart, funny and receptive.  Nickname: Doc

Alright now saving the best for last....This is the one I found most entertaining.  I was coming back from my favorite coffee shop and walking down to the rivers edge, I almost ran into a guy as I was walking down there because I was lost in my thoughts. We go our seperate ways and as I go sit under a tree, drink my latte and enjoy the scenery, I see him scaling the ledge to the embankment of the river so he can walk on the outcropping of rocks.  I start an open monologue in my head as I watch him sit down on the outcropping.  After about 15 minutes of him just sitting out there, I see him coming back.  Curiosity being more than I can take i walk over to the little area that leads to the rock wall and sit down on a bench.  When he comes close to where I'm at I say 'hello, I have a question for you.'  So we start talking and it was really pleasant because he consented to join me on the bench.  We haven't shared numbers but he's aware of my favorite coffee shop cause that's where he goes.  Maybe we'll see each other again...maybe not, only time will tell. Nickname: Mexico


I've given each of these guys nicknames just in case more develops I can refer you back to their origin.  Who knows this could be quit fun.

fuck buddies

lol so I txted my fuck buddy to tell him I once again single and he informs me that he misses hooking up with me.  I was informed that I was pretty damn good in bed.  Well I suppose its time to find another fuck buddy...gay.

The breakup...cleaner break than I've ever had...

Well I just broke up with my girlfriend.  To be honest she wasn't mad or at least didn't let on that she was mad.  I could tell she was holding back tears because she didn't want to cry in front of me and to be honest I was about to cry but I held back my tears, she was an awesome girlfriend but I knew that in the long run we would not have lasted and that if we stayed in the relationship long term it would have come to a very messy end and that's not something I had wanted for either of us, because she is a great girl with a fantastic personality, but our personalities in the long run would clash and then our relatonship would be nothing but a smoldering heap.  she would have asked if I'd like to get a place with her and I would have had to reply with I can't.  she did agree to stay friends though which is good, but I'm going to give her time to lick her wounds in peace.  I'm glad this was not a messy break up, I hate those its not good for either person besides I'd much rather keep her as a friend than to lose her as a lover....that line has brought me nothing but heartache in the past.  this post is done.  I need to go lick my wounds...my self inflicted wounds.

Mohawk, crazy hick and committment issues...

ok so remember about that girl I told you about that was pushing for a relationship even though we didn't know each other...well ya we been dating 2 months going on our third the 22 or 28th of this month.  The damn girl drives me bonkers.  Shes so hyper and happy and I mean she's really hyper bounces off the walls, I love the fact she's a very happy person but she's over the top with it.  I had considered asking her to live with me but I don't think I have the patience for that.  I'm a very mellow and down to earth type of girl, I don't usually get to excited and don't mind staying in and mostly I don't talk alot.  My girl however talks all the time, when she gets any caffiene she bounces off the damn wall, did I mention she reminds me of a teenage girl when she's like this.  She's on antidepressant medication so she's got one more thing in common with me, psych issues.  I don't forsee our relationship lasting too long because we are so different.  I love her don't get me wrong but I would rather hurt her earlier in our relationship than later when it'll only get harder on both of us, time is on my side.  I guess I'm not a very committed person when it comes to relationships, I'm too wishy washy, besides i'm still quit young and I want to explore everything out there.  She's coming over later this evening and I'm going to sit her down and tell her what's on my mind, be very open and honest...not that this has actually done me any good in the past and trying to be open and honest with a girl...wow that should be interesting.  I hope she agrees to just be friends for right now.

Ok now the crazy ass hick development.  He had a girl move in with him with 2 children, did I mention moved in with hicks dad..?  They didn't even know each other for christs sake!!! yea...well she brought her kids but lost them because hicks dads house is the house of a hoarder, and she wasn't out there to pick them up because of one last booty call....'yea i'm suppose to pick my kids up, but lets fuck instead, I like that so much more than actually trying to take care of my kids.'  So she lost her kids, crazy hick got a house for them so she could get her kids back and so he could take care of her, one I didn't get cause I knew I'd get fucked over....hey guess what, he did get fucked over, anyways so instead of busting her ass to get her kids back she goes out, parties, does drugs and fucks over crazy ass hick.  This entire time we all were trying to tell him he was in a relationship with her but he said no they weren't they were only fuck buddies...yea...ok...right.  Well when I tried to tell him I'm happy he's in a relationship he tells me no I'm not, I'm waiting for you, you have my heart and I love you and I want to be in a relationship with you...blah blah blah blah... so the bitch pisses hick off and he kicks her out cause she was fucking around his back and doing drugs.  Now a week or 2 later he feels sorry for kicking her out and telling DFS that she was out doing drugs and what not and is trying to get her back cause 'she found a way in my heart and i don't know how she did it...i really care for her.'  Idiot, even though not only did we all tell him he was in a relationship but also that she was bad for him and that in the end she was going to fuck him over....well now he's going back to the state I brought him from, a good idea in my opinion he seemed to have more going for him out there than he does down here, not to mention I really want him to stop confessing his love and pouring out his damn heart to me.  He got so pissed at me when I told him I was talking to women on the internet to explore my options.  Seriously we got into a huge fight over it and he gave me that stare..the stare that was trying to make me back down.  I've got a steal rod for a spine and an ice cold heart and I told him to get his shit and get out, I wasn't interested in dating him right now which is what I told him when he first came to live with me...fucktard.  So anyways, now that I'm off that tangent.  He's giving her 2 weeks to come back to him before he ups and leaves to go back to his state.  Good riddens to bad rubbish, I found out that he hasn't changed in anyway in fact he seems to have gotten worse and now I feel content....now to get rid of my roommate...omg! Thats another blog post...damn I can't wait for him to leave!!